Oliolioxinfree Lyrics

I've begged for death one too many times
Singing and screaming these useless rhymes
But this time I'll take control
I'll lay down and accept my role
My heart is turning f****** black

You had your fingers crossed behind your back
My heart is turning f****** black

I'm screaming oliolioxenfree
Cause I can't find my sanity
Where could it be?
Is this even me? Is this even me?

I'm not suicidal I swear
Oops I forgot that I don't care
To appease your standards
To be the better man
Withering dry doing everything I can

I don't get s*** back
And I'm tired of that
Because everything you hate in me is everything you lack
Get up
Get out

f*** me till I can think again
f*** me till I can feel again

f*** me till I can feel

My world's collapsed
So it's time to relapse
Where I shut myself down
And pull apart the scraps
So long who you knew
Cause I changed before you withdrew
It's true, I'm through, I have no clue who I am
Just a useless f****** shell of a bitter broken man

I hate my own head
I wish I was dead
I dream of knives and blood dripping red (dripping red)

This isn't a scene from a silver screen
And there's no f****** way to wipe myself clean
The pieces I stole just turned into coal

Always knew it was my role
Always knew I was a dead soul