My head snapped in the worst trap I see my foes takin dirt naps
For years ive been running full speed but im just finishing the first lap
Is life really about coming up or is the purpose really about love
Trouble real easy to get into but its hell getting out of
My childhoods all gone now its tough standing on my own now
I miss staying in my mommas house
gotta keep remembering im grown now
Got stuggles that I got to over come and mountains that I got to go beyond
Im staggered and disoriented feelin all s***ed out and im the sober one
But I made it through a lot of long years
its like the moneys where the wrong is
Its bad when that devils on your shoulder, but some days I be on his
Im steady walkin down the wrong route I don't smoke but im zoned out
The streets aint got nothing on the war that im fighting in my own house
From sun up to when the suns down
My hearts weighin bout a ton now
I exploded like a bomb sound
everybody telling me to calm down
but I wont stop until I get enough
my stress cup keeps feelin up
im acting like im happy
but im about to go insane cause the pain building up
If you only knew the days I've had
the tears that live inside my laughs
come grab my shoes and walk my path
the tears that live inside my laughs
Am I frustrated extremely
Dirty a***ysts they wanna screen me
Ive got a storm brewing in my mind but youd never know it youve seen me
See ive never been a cutthroat dude and ive never been to fly to listen
They say that nice guys finish last well Im guessin that explains my position
Cause other than this deep harassment
I be shovelin through hated madness
And theirs trouble in my mental cabinets
mouth covering my inner sadness
tryin to empty out my whole song vault
been hit up with a lot of thrown salt
my daddy told me 99 percent of things that happen to you are your own fault
im hated because im not manipulated
I waited til my mind was liberated
I made it possible for other cats to make it
but the love was not reciprocated
And its loadin up because I never vented
im getting more aggressive by the minute
And I don't care how good and generous you represented
everybody got a limit
I lost touch with myself its gone Im disconnected like a telephone
im tolerating what your saying
but im thinking please leave me the hell alone
Some peace I was looking forward to and patience is what im showing you
Man i don't wanna take it out on you
but im about to click from what im going through
If you only knew the days I've had
the tears that live inside my laughs
come grab my shoes and walk my path
the tears that live inside my laughs
All my wit and I prayed my inner strength I beslayed
When my confidence was hit by a relentless brigade
Yeah I spent what was paid every cent that was made
Flashbacks post dramatic memories bad events were replayed
I was lynched and betrayed though im meant to be saved
But through it all for my god I well represent unafraid
I never bent and never layed hate they sent was like a blade
My existence in the game others tried to prevent but I stayed
There's no pacifying the whole world is dying
but whose gunna be the one in you to wake up that lion
And break up that dying fist up those eyein
Miss who keep trying to posses them their defiance
Meanwhile im just tryin to fight with the powers of my own vices
Everybody walking around lifeless they aint knowing every seconds priceless
A civilization in a crisis wish that I could turn on a light switch
Tryin to get my name on the right list cant even bust at em because I might miss
If you only knew the days I've had
the tears that live inside my laughs
come grab my shoes and walk my path
the tears that live inside my laughs
For years ive been running full speed but im just finishing the first lap
Is life really about coming up or is the purpose really about love
Trouble real easy to get into but its hell getting out of
My childhoods all gone now its tough standing on my own now
I miss staying in my mommas house
gotta keep remembering im grown now
Got stuggles that I got to over come and mountains that I got to go beyond
Im staggered and disoriented feelin all s***ed out and im the sober one
But I made it through a lot of long years
its like the moneys where the wrong is
Its bad when that devils on your shoulder, but some days I be on his
Im steady walkin down the wrong route I don't smoke but im zoned out
The streets aint got nothing on the war that im fighting in my own house
From sun up to when the suns down
My hearts weighin bout a ton now
I exploded like a bomb sound
everybody telling me to calm down
but I wont stop until I get enough
my stress cup keeps feelin up
im acting like im happy
but im about to go insane cause the pain building up
If you only knew the days I've had
the tears that live inside my laughs
come grab my shoes and walk my path
the tears that live inside my laughs
Am I frustrated extremely
Dirty a***ysts they wanna screen me
Ive got a storm brewing in my mind but youd never know it youve seen me
See ive never been a cutthroat dude and ive never been to fly to listen
They say that nice guys finish last well Im guessin that explains my position
Cause other than this deep harassment
I be shovelin through hated madness
And theirs trouble in my mental cabinets
mouth covering my inner sadness
tryin to empty out my whole song vault
been hit up with a lot of thrown salt
my daddy told me 99 percent of things that happen to you are your own fault
im hated because im not manipulated
I waited til my mind was liberated
I made it possible for other cats to make it
but the love was not reciprocated
And its loadin up because I never vented
im getting more aggressive by the minute
And I don't care how good and generous you represented
everybody got a limit
I lost touch with myself its gone Im disconnected like a telephone
im tolerating what your saying
but im thinking please leave me the hell alone
Some peace I was looking forward to and patience is what im showing you
Man i don't wanna take it out on you
but im about to click from what im going through
If you only knew the days I've had
the tears that live inside my laughs
come grab my shoes and walk my path
the tears that live inside my laughs
All my wit and I prayed my inner strength I beslayed
When my confidence was hit by a relentless brigade
Yeah I spent what was paid every cent that was made
Flashbacks post dramatic memories bad events were replayed
I was lynched and betrayed though im meant to be saved
But through it all for my god I well represent unafraid
I never bent and never layed hate they sent was like a blade
My existence in the game others tried to prevent but I stayed
There's no pacifying the whole world is dying
but whose gunna be the one in you to wake up that lion
And break up that dying fist up those eyein
Miss who keep trying to posses them their defiance
Meanwhile im just tryin to fight with the powers of my own vices
Everybody walking around lifeless they aint knowing every seconds priceless
A civilization in a crisis wish that I could turn on a light switch
Tryin to get my name on the right list cant even bust at em because I might miss
If you only knew the days I've had
the tears that live inside my laughs
come grab my shoes and walk my path
the tears that live inside my laughs