Fixating on my wounds again
Pulling at my limbs just to see how far I bend
Persuing every detail in my skin
I am self dissection and I cherish every pin
This genocide behind my eyes
Disposes of any piece that threatens to defy
it never rests shedding every useless thing
as I stretch towards complete autonomy
I have forgotten
How it feels
To be clean and
To be just me
I am not lost I
am just in hiding
to be held by time
and take back my life
I'll push this far enough to see
How to take control over every part of me
I contain everything I need
To know that I'm alive all I have to do is breathe
Alone, safe with the company I keep
except the needling of thoughts, pushed in way too deep
I fear the ache that finds me in my sleep
I know I can't run faster than the blood black night can creep
Filling me up
making me whole
holding me close
letting me grow. freeing my soul
Pulling at my limbs just to see how far I bend
Persuing every detail in my skin
I am self dissection and I cherish every pin
This genocide behind my eyes
Disposes of any piece that threatens to defy
it never rests shedding every useless thing
as I stretch towards complete autonomy
I have forgotten
How it feels
To be clean and
To be just me
I am not lost I
am just in hiding
to be held by time
and take back my life
I'll push this far enough to see
How to take control over every part of me
I contain everything I need
To know that I'm alive all I have to do is breathe
Alone, safe with the company I keep
except the needling of thoughts, pushed in way too deep
I fear the ache that finds me in my sleep
I know I can't run faster than the blood black night can creep
Filling me up
making me whole
holding me close
letting me grow. freeing my soul