i don't want to hold on, i don't want to let go.how i got into this mess... i don't know.more f***** up than i was before.i don't think that i can take anymore.i can't take it.i feel let down, i feel cheated.never thought i'd be the one to be mistreated.wouldn't be surprised if it's all in my head.don't be surprised if i end up dead.i can't take it.