it always d***ed me what i chose to be. wishing i could only lose it. when i choose it but i'm not free. not free. caught between in what i left to die. caught behind in what i wish to die. caught inside is where i wanted to die with you. cut my throat so we can drown in blood this memory and i still suffer in love. from which i gave to you. only me and you. i'm suffering. buried with what i suffer. covered in what keeps me alive. saved by your memory. but i will never be back to save you. i'll only suffer.