If I Ever Loved You Lyrics

Baby, I was not the one
I guess you know that now
But I kept you real distracted for a while.
I look back and nothing much
Ever comes to mind
Sometimes I can picture half a smile

We were thick as thieves
Hung on each other's sleeves
Kissing all the time

But if I ever loved you, shouldn't I be crying
Shouldn't I be cracking up
Or drinking all the time?
Yeah, if I ever loved you how come I feel alright?
How come the nights are so easy
And the mornings look so bright?

I try to figure what has gone
I seem to look the same
Maybe there's a tightness around my eyes
Sometimes the evening comes
I think I miss someone
But then I realise

That if I ever loved you shouldn't I be crying
Shouldn't I be cracking up
Or drinking all the time?
Yeah, if I ever loved you how come I feel alright?
How come the nights are so easy
And the mornings look so bright?

And love, it can make your world
Bring you alive
But I wasn't dead before
So baby, you ain't hard to survive.
And Baby, I was not the one
But I had to try
And in the end there's no such thing
As wasted time

I was the interim
Between nothingness and him
So how is that a crime?

'Cause if I ever loved you
Shouldn't I be cryin'
Shouldn't I be crackin' up
Or drinking all the time?
Yeah, if I ever loved you how come I feel alright?
How come the nights are so easy
And the mornings look so bright?