The Awakening Lyrics

I am wasting away
The desires of my mind left a shameful path
Walked by a man surely unworthy of grace
And i have no one to blame
And no one to take the pain away
I've had my life
Hit the bottom multiple times before my eyes
So i'm left wasting away wasting away
But i'm supposed to believe that i can be saved
When the life i've lead is so despicable

Can i push the limits
Be accepted for the things that i've done
Behind closed doors
For i've lived a life that i'm ashamed of
Will i be forgiven or abandoned for the secrets i keep
Behind closed doors
But i'm supposed to believe that i can be saved
When the life i've lead is so despicable
Never have i imagined i'd be forgiven or be accepted
Like i had never committed these sins
As i lay filthy disgusted at my own reflection
I slowly i wonder if i'll ever end this suffering

Can i push the limits
Be accepted for the things that i've done
Behind closed doors
For i've lived a life that i'm ashamed of
Will i be forgiven or abandoned for the secrets i keep
Behind closed doors
So i bide my time
And i lie awake at night
Then i close my eyes
And wonder if i'll ever wake up

It's been too long now
Since i could believe
In places for people like me
To have their sins washed clean

It's been too long since i believed
Can i be clean it's been too long