if i had a choice i rather my higher power decide to take me first
i think the other way around would only make me worse
rarely was i ever trusted without the suspicions
and very few could ever love me without a few conditions
those are the ones i care to treasure, ones i wouldnt dare sever
a bunch of my peers efforts been fair weather
the deaf have great vision and the blind man could hear better
figured since i lost all my senses that i would fear better
im not the social type, nothin about him socialite
designed the prototype, how to unlove overnight
flip side i die for my n***** put it the simplest
you give me your all and ima send it back with interest
this is for my n***** that helped me before i suggested
im just trying to send the flowers before you could jest it
the man in fact that ive become you had a hand in that
and ill give yall the world but im sure that yall would hand it back
she was on the phone tryin to sound relaxed
but the words comin out her mouth aint have the sound to match
voice tremblin as if you were barely holding on
meanwhile trying to be strong to protect your second born
s*** was scary to me, if something happened to you
whatll happen to us, like im living vicariously
i seen your life flash, right past, my reaction buried deep inside
if you go, theyll have to bury me alive
how would i survive, f*** em, my new memoir
life coach and mentor, just a grim thought makes my tears cross
single mother, held it down when my pop was locked away
cried everytime i gave my mom a gift on fathers day
but ill be here for you like you were there for yours
and she was layin, decayin all the days spent praying
gospel music playin, a few days from death
but always felt us on our way in, we were like her safe haven
you always thought you were her least favorite child
only sibiling that showed up, you at least make her smile
at least make her proud, not an obstacle thats too hard
[?] tries to be half the person you are
aint never neglect, so ill forever respect
i more then owe my life to you, im forever in debt
i mean my mother got cancer in her neck
but ill be behind you every step, what the f*** did you expect
d*** how you always know better then me
amazes me when you show me what i never could see
so the break up never really was a plan to me
in retrospect i think i was complaisant with insanity
we were so exhausted, bored with, tortured,
but since i couldnt picture my life without you i fought it
like we could get through anything too much pride in us
better off without eachother, i wouldve been depriving us
at times you see people in ways you shouldnt portray em
cause they aint living up to a t**le you shouldnt of gave em
headshot pointblank range committed murder
honestly thought i couldnt move on and went further
used to want to suffer for the pain you caused
now when i see you gain i applaud
what im tryin to say is, dont complain about yr path and where it took you
cause you might end up with somebody to sing this hook too
i think the other way around would only make me worse
rarely was i ever trusted without the suspicions
and very few could ever love me without a few conditions
those are the ones i care to treasure, ones i wouldnt dare sever
a bunch of my peers efforts been fair weather
the deaf have great vision and the blind man could hear better
figured since i lost all my senses that i would fear better
im not the social type, nothin about him socialite
designed the prototype, how to unlove overnight
flip side i die for my n***** put it the simplest
you give me your all and ima send it back with interest
this is for my n***** that helped me before i suggested
im just trying to send the flowers before you could jest it
the man in fact that ive become you had a hand in that
and ill give yall the world but im sure that yall would hand it back
she was on the phone tryin to sound relaxed
but the words comin out her mouth aint have the sound to match
voice tremblin as if you were barely holding on
meanwhile trying to be strong to protect your second born
s*** was scary to me, if something happened to you
whatll happen to us, like im living vicariously
i seen your life flash, right past, my reaction buried deep inside
if you go, theyll have to bury me alive
how would i survive, f*** em, my new memoir
life coach and mentor, just a grim thought makes my tears cross
single mother, held it down when my pop was locked away
cried everytime i gave my mom a gift on fathers day
but ill be here for you like you were there for yours
and she was layin, decayin all the days spent praying
gospel music playin, a few days from death
but always felt us on our way in, we were like her safe haven
you always thought you were her least favorite child
only sibiling that showed up, you at least make her smile
at least make her proud, not an obstacle thats too hard
[?] tries to be half the person you are
aint never neglect, so ill forever respect
i more then owe my life to you, im forever in debt
i mean my mother got cancer in her neck
but ill be behind you every step, what the f*** did you expect
d*** how you always know better then me
amazes me when you show me what i never could see
so the break up never really was a plan to me
in retrospect i think i was complaisant with insanity
we were so exhausted, bored with, tortured,
but since i couldnt picture my life without you i fought it
like we could get through anything too much pride in us
better off without eachother, i wouldve been depriving us
at times you see people in ways you shouldnt portray em
cause they aint living up to a t**le you shouldnt of gave em
headshot pointblank range committed murder
honestly thought i couldnt move on and went further
used to want to suffer for the pain you caused
now when i see you gain i applaud
what im tryin to say is, dont complain about yr path and where it took you
cause you might end up with somebody to sing this hook too